Sucks. I really wished I was a genius. This post exam feeling really sucks. I HATE IT!
Yesterday I thought i woke up to another world. My vision was blurred and I though, oh god, I’m finally in another dimension.
Those artists that failed to be one become miserable. Its all about meeting the right person at the right time. And I’m all coop up in this place void of even the chance for me to fly. It’s sad that I always dream big and nothing becomes of it. Am I just too egoistic? Or is my confidence overwhelming? I know i make a great artist. And it’s only that occupation that I’ll be able to enjoy my work. Damn, it won’t even be work till then. Pity, this stable country of mine, looks down upon celebrities. To us, they aren’t that great. Just a miserable cunning human being. I yearn to be those great artists that commands influence: that touches people heart: that people love.. Just like her.
You find that great guy and he’s out of your league. Its just not the right time, I console myself..
Gained weight ):
Due to constant eating.
I’ve gotta find a way to motivate myself and what’s better than revenge? I will be slim and one day you’ll be jealous of how great I look. But too bad, I’m not yours anymore.
Am watching a doctor drama again. Man, makes me feel like wanting to be a doctor again. It was my primary school dream, but then I changed it to lawyer, teacher, scientist, housewife, and lately, engineer. But what would satisfy you more than being a doctor that could save people? The kind of feeling you get, together with the pressure i know, is indescribable. If I could timetravel back, I would really strive to study hard. I’d take bio even if it requires me to stay back.
So much regrets in life, and yet I can’t do anything to change it. Therefore, I should really study hard now and be a great engineer because I know one day I would regret for not trying my best. I will be a great runner because I know one day I would regret for not joining biathlon.
I will excel in languages.
I will be a great scientist. Or whatever. I will be great in everything and anything. (: this is my goal in life. :D
